new poem find

Because lovely things should be shared! ♥♥♥

I do this over at my Multiply (tag: “poetry”) but I want to post this one here. This poem’s simply exquisite. 

The poet loves with a most violent heart.

Source.

Why You Should Never Marry a Poet

by Heather Bell

Think about it – the way that credit cards, bougainvillea,
vacations, dictionaries, the road on the way to work will

all never be enough. The poet wishes
with her deepest bones
and writes that she wishes
she would have killed you

in the supermarket. She wonders why
she ever loved you in song.

She publishes book after book. Each line detailing
how your hair is ugly and monstrous in the morning. And how,
like moss, you cling to her
so piteously.

But you marry her anyway.
and she looks like a roar of snow
in white. You figure she will read a poem about you
that day in front of everyone: her throat

is, after all, a stamen
or matchstick.

But she is silent, says only the I DO’s
and a few Bible verses.

The poet loves with a most violent
heart. What you have not known-
she has wanted to tell you the truth
all of these years,

but grew silent as an old lover does
at eighty. There is no way to say

how one loves the ache of your cracked lips,
the heavy belly of your tongue, the years she spent
feeling not loved,
but still loving. Think about it-

the poet is fearful of others knowing and finding your mouth.

She is frightened of you -
realizing you could have been
loved better or harder
or with real words.

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As for me, I’ve finally looked over all of the poems to be included in my collection after “Reportage“. Looking good, so far.

identity crisis

Photo from DC Comics

The Elongated Man is on a stakeout with a younger companion. While waiting for a crime to occur, they begin talking about his wife, Sue. “She’s my lady,” he says. Hours later, Sue is found dead.

You’ve heard of this before: a comic hero loses a loved one, is devastated, thinks of revenge. But this one really got to me. Heartbreaking and touching.

It’s quite a decent whodunit too, with an excellent fight sequence involving Deathstroke and the members of the JLA.

Joss Whedon, in his introduction, says Brad Meltzer shines a light on these well-known DC characters, and shows us what has always been there: “Humanity.”

Yes.

Photo from Brad Meltzer.com

so. nostalgia.

I was able to spend time with the family this week. So that meant marathons of Project Runway and America’s Best Dance Crew episodes, old action flicks (Face/Off for example – masaya pala ‘yun ano?), and a sampling of my mother’s newest invention dish, ampalaya with oyster sauce.

I also found this cute gasul alkansya. (Alcohol bottle’s for height comparison.)

And my brother (a non-smoker) got this picture taken as a joke for my father (who should quit. Like, now. LOL.)

I also flipped through our photo albums and took a gajillion photos!

Miss Friendship (kindergarten parade) looking not too friendly:

Littol me in a teacup…

…that was apparently part of a ride that’s currently not functioning (see CLOSED sign right there) but kebs! Kelangan ang photo-op. :D

I’m wearing tights here. And an orange skirt. And I’m in pigtails. I don’t know why I look so dissatisfied.

Eeee my brother looks adorable! And I envy the Batibot cake. ♥

Brother is not pleased with this other baby:

Early family photos. Littlest brother forthcoming heh.

All four of us. My brothers are holding hands here. :)

With my sister.

Smiling like there’s no tomorrow:

* * *

On Saturday, Jaykie’s nephew’s 5th birthday. Happy birthday, George!

We gave this kiddie a book featuring a dragon, and an Archie comic. Because READING IS FUN Y’ALL.

(Segue: Thanks to Jaykie for buying me a copy of that Tatler issue with my picture. Yehey yehey.)

* * *

I was able to write six pages of fiction on Thursday-Friday. First story for 2010, here I come. ;)

on books and collages

The first six are over here.

#7

#8

Fell in love with the details of the room in this picture, so I just decided not to tear it up.

So pretty. ♥

These should be up on my wall in no time.

* * *

Here be a pile of books I’ve read or cannot read anymore (hello, Eden Express, hello Sleepers).

Here be my TBR pile.

Done with Ender’s Game, now reading The Likeness and Landscapes.

Check out my cool bookmark (a gift from Almi, yay!):

* * *

And on the writing front -

Copy-pasted all of my poems in a single file; will now open said file when I no longer feel like throwing up at the sight of it.

Bizaare. Last night I actually dreamt a workable opening scene for this short story that’s been bugging me for months. I’ll go back to fiction writing soon, soon.

ender’s game

…but never did we dream that thought could arise from the lonely animals who cannot dream each other’s dreams. How were we to know?

Ender’s Game

I have read Ender’s Shadow before this book. Shadow basically tells the same story, only from Bean’s perspective. And so I dove into this novel already knowing the great, tragic twist; I have working knowledge of the Battle School even before I cracked open this book. Remember, the enemy gate is down, says Ender Wiggin, and true, true. I know that. Really, there shouldn’t be a surprise.

And still the last few pages of Ender’s Game knocked the wind right out of me. Unbelievable emotional power. Unbelievable.

a myth

Feminism brought us suffrage, career opportunities, awareness.

Imagine the modern woman: perfumed, confident, dressed to the nines, successful, smart. Imagine you’re an institution that will find profit, huge profit, in her destruction. How will you destroy her?

Tell her she’s ugly.

Tell her she’s too fat.

Tell her her hair’s too thick, or she’s wearing the wrong lipstick, or her boobs are too small.

Now, if you’re the woman, how do you fight back? By not believing. By not caring.

That’s easy enough to do, right? We know better, right? We’re empowered. Right?

This is quite a compelling read, and a bit of an eye-opener. Thanks to Cyril for lending me a copy. :)

* * *

I haven’t read a nonfiction book in a while, so I was glad to have been able to read this one. Some of the other nonfic books that I enjoyed, off the top of my head: Watching the English, In Cold Blood, Bully, Freakonomics, Stupid White Men, The Culture of Narcissism, Fast Food Nation, and an excellent collection of true-to-life police stories presented interview transcript-style, with no comments from the author (I cannot remember the title, gah) .

I’d like to get my reading paws on this one:

* * *

Thanks to Kenneth Yu for this FYI. :)

Some shameless self-promotion: I have a short story, “Singing”, in the January 18, 2010 issue of The Philippine Graphic. My thanks to the literary editor, Marra PL. Lanot, for taking it in.

Incidentally, in the same issue is the poem “Reportage” by online acquaintance Eliza Victoria.

Hooray. :D

sherlock

photo from reelmovienews.com

Canon? What canon?

Watching this film is like watching Adrian Monk (character in a TV show also based on the Sherlock Holmes formula of brilliant detective – exasperated yet loyal assistant – unsolvable crime – “here’s what happened”) pick up a gun and shoot a criminal without experiencing a major OCD freakout.

In other words, if you’re a Sherlock purist, you’ll find Downey’s (and Guy Ritchie’s) take on this character infuriatingly unrecognizable. Slick, you say? Composed, you say? Fuck that shit, this Sherlock Holmes breaks bones, and explains what he does in slow-mo and Mastercard commercial-like VO. (“Priceless.”)

I’ve read perhaps two short stories, several excerpts, but I won’t say I know Sherlock and Dr. Watson all that well. So of course I enjoyed the show. To quote Roger Ebert: “The less I thought about Sherlock Holmes, the more I liked ‘Sherlock Holmes’… It’s likely to be enjoyed by today’s action fans. But block bookings are not likely from the Baker Street Irregulars.”

The film looks fantastic, and the score is A-plus. If you’re a “Baker Street Irregular”, calm down, leave what you know about the Sherlock Universe by the guard outside the cinema, and enjoy the dark and the grit of this Baker Street.

You’ll like this Sherlock. He’s a fun guy.

Also: gay subtext? What gay subtext? ;)

expanded horizons’ list of world sf stories for ’09

I have two stories in the list, ahoy! ♥

And they’ve got nothing but kind words for the Islands:

We published the most stories by authors from the Philippines (4 stories, 3 authors) and India (4 stories, 3 authors), followed by Israel and Mexico (2-2 stories, by one author). We’ve received a lot of links and mentions from the Philippines blogosphere – we’d like to thank everyone who linked to us, and we will always remain open to great Filipino/a stories!

Much love! Thank you for publishing these stories, Expanded Horizons!

Stories are listed in the order of appearance.

The Sun Diary by Lavie Tidhar (Israeli)

A Mother’s Dilemma by Jasmin Nanda (Indian)

Memories of my Sister by Aliette de Bodard (French-Vietnamese)

King of Sand and Stormy Seas by Silvia Moreno-Garcia (Mexican immigrant to the US)

Night Out by Eliza Victoria (Filipina)

Bhima by Ajay Vishwanathan (Indian)

Slip Road by Tade Thompson (Nigerian immigrant to the UK)

Alienation and Love in the Hebrew Alphabet by Lavie Tidhar (Israeli)

Sinking Palaces by Silvia Moreno-Garcia (Mexican immigrant to the US)

The Second Mrs. Sharma by Bindia Persaud (Guyanese immigrant to Canada)

A Texture Beyond Dreams by Swapna Kishore (Indian)

Haunted Persuasion by Lilian Wu (Singaporean)

I Am the City by Eliza Victoria (Filipina)

A Memory of Ice by Bint Arab (Iraqi immigrant to the US)

Twin Cities by Catherine Batac Walder (Filipina immigrant to the UK)

The Ascension of our Lady Boy by Mia Tijam (Filipina)

Dreams by Jasmin Nanda (Indian)

And your beloved site admin is from Hungary ;)