reading, reading, plodding along

Three things:

  • The election results are nauseating.
  • If you ordered a copy of Unseen Moon, you should have received an email by now. :) Please reply to me so I can make sure you are a person and not a figment of my imagination.
  • Books will always be there for you.

Here are some books I’ve recently finished.

Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me? (And Other Concerns)Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me? by Mindy Kaling

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Read this in one sitting. I am a fan of The Office (first season was funny, second season was brilliant, third to fourth season was that kind friend you come home to after a long day, then I gave up), but not really of Mindy Kaling, as she plays Kelly, a “tertiary character” that tends “to have one or two great lines per episode. Wait, what’s the thing that comes after tertiary? That’s Kelly.” I know she now has The Mindy Project, but I haven’t seen that, so all I know about Kaling is that she plays Kelly Kapoor. I’m so glad I read this book. The text is not laugh-out-loud funny, but I find her humor and her stories and her attention to strange detail endearing. It’s a light read you should bring with you to cheer you up. Hell, it cheered me up. (“This book will take you two days to read. Did you even see the cover? It’s mostly pink.”)

Also, and I just found out about this through this book, Kaling and a friend wrote a one-act play called Matt & Ben, where she played Ben Affleck. The play got her a meeting with The Office creator, Greg Daniels. That is awesome. Where can I get a recording?

The Noonday Demon: An Atlas of DepressionThe Noonday Demon: An Atlas of Depression by Andrew Solomon

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Andrew Solomon once again writes with infinite grace, understanding, and generosity. If you want to learn more about depression, or if you’re suffering from it, this is the book for you. Actually, I would recommend this to everyone, because even in this day and age, I still hear people talk about depression as if it were ordinary sadness that you can just walk off, or cure with a drinking session with a couple of friends. I used to say that, when I was younger, not knowing that there are people who cannot literally get out of bed in the morning due to this paralyzing ailment. Solomon writes about his own depression, and discusses suicide (his own mother committed suicide when she realized that she won’t be cured of her illness), depression among the poor (an often overlooked demographic), and the politics of institutionalization and medication.

A Blind Man Can See How Much I Love YouA Blind Man Can See How Much I Love You by Amy Bloom

My rating: 4 of 5 stars

I can’t quite articulate how much I loved these stories, how much I admired the level of craft on display here. Characterizations are sharp, and descriptions are precise and concise. It is amazing. Consider this excerpt:

The summer Jessie Spencer turned five, she played Capture the Flag every day with the big boys, the almost-six-year-olds who’d gone to kindergarten a year late. Jane never worried, even in passing, about Jesse’s IQ or her eye-hand coordination or her social skills. Jesse and Jane were a mutual admiration society of two smart, strong, blue-eyed women, one five and one thirty-five, both good skaters and good singers and good storytellers. Jane didn’t mention all this to the other mothers at play group, who would have said it was the same between them and their daughters when Jane could see it was not, and she didn’t mention it to her own sweet, anxious mother, who would have taken it, understandably, as a reproach. Jane didn’t even mention this closeness to the pediatrician, keeper of every mother’s secret fears and wishes, but it sang her to sleep at night. Jane’s reputation as the play group’s good listener was undeserved; the mothers talked about their knock-kneed girls and backward boys and Jane smiled and her eyes followed Jesse. She watched her and thought, That smile! Those lashes! How brave! How determined!

That single paragraph (the second paragraph in the first story) made me sit up and take notice.

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madeca + a visit to UP Diliman

Hello first paid leave of the year!

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A Thursday that feels like a Saturday. Off we went to Podium and had lunch at Madeca, a Filipino-Mexican fusion restaurant. I had the spinach & mushroom quesadilla and J had the salpicao burrito. Flavors are bold, just the way Pinoys like it. (We don’t do subtlety in our horror and drama films, and we don’t do subtlety in our food.)

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After lunch, we headed to ADB to meet up with Books on Demand Philippines. Bumped into Mina Esguerra! Also saw G, who bought us donuts. (And who didn’t know ADB has an Espresso Book Machine haha.) ADB looks gorgeous (I was too shy to take photos), but the offices are very quiet.

Then UP with J and Phil for the launch of several UP Press books.

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The Best of Philippine Speculative Fiction editor Dean Alfar saying a few words.

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Hope you’ll pick up the book! It’s a good sampler of what the Alfars and the other editors (and the writers!) have been up to for the past eight years.

and the field/ briefly stirring to life

Coming Soon

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List Price: $4.99/around PhP 200
8″ x 10″ (20.32 x 25.4 cm)
Black & White on White paper
38 pages
ISBN-13: 978-1482521955 (CreateSpace-Assigned)
ISBN-10: 1482521954
BISAC: Poetry / General
 

A selection of poems by Filipino author Eliza Victoria.

Contains poems from the Palanca Award-winning collections, “Maps” and “Reportage”, as well as poems that have previously appeared in Room Magazine, The Pedestal Magazine, and Stone Telling.

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Once the poetry chapbook becomes available, you can order copies via Amazon.com, Amazon Europe, and the CreateSpace eStore.

Residents in the Philippines who want to order the chapbook can order copies from me directly to save on shipping costs and to avoid delays. While the overseas version uses a cover created on CreateSpace, the Philippine edition will feature a cover designed by Adam David. (He’s working on it as I write!UPDATE: And it’s done! View it here.) The local edition will cost PhP 200, plus 50 to 100 for shipping. I’m sorry, but I can’t do meet-ups/pick-ups right now.

In the meantime, if you’d like to order the Philippine edition, please leave a comment below beginning with the word ORDER, followed by your first name and the number of copies you want to buy, so I can have a rough idea about the number of copies I will need to have ready locally. Please only leave an order comment if you seriously want to order a copy. My order will be dependent on the number of orders in the comments here. And yes, I’m talking to all two of you.

Further details on payment and shipment for local orders will be provided once the book is available (April at the latest). I’ll reach out to you, don’t worry.

Why go the self-publishing route? It’s fast, it gives the author complete control, and this is too small a book to peddle to traditional publishers. Poetry is vibrant in the small presses. More on this in later posts.

My thanks to Mina Esguerra for answering a question of mine early in the morning, and for her helpful posts about self-publishing. My thanks also to Adam David, and the other editors who first gave my poems a home.

And thanks to you, for reading, and I hope I can get your support for this little experiment of mine.

never let me go

Never Let Me GoNever Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Never Let Me Go opens with the narrator introducing herself (My name is Kathy H. and I am 31 years old), and who then talks, bewilderingly, about her job as a carer. She has been a carer for years, she says, and she is proud of her job, and she is proud the donors she cares for are calm. She then moves on to talk about a boarding school she attended when she was young. From the description of events you can tell that it is not an ordinary boarding school, and Kathy H. is only telling us a tiny sliver of the truth at a time, doling it out like candy. She doesn’t do this deliberately. She tells a story like a child. She sounds naive at times; she jumps from one topic to another before returning to the original discussion. She is matter-of-fact. She doesn’t wax poetic, even when what she is telling us is horrible. She doesn’t regard it as horror. She regards it as her life, and that’s that.

Ishiguro eases you into the big secret, leaving clues here and there, but I already knew it before reading the first line, (no) thanks to the film adaptation trailers and ads. Some critics, who didn’t know the true circumstances of Kathy H. before reading the book, read it as a horror novel. I read it as a very sad story. Here is a girl living this life, and she tells us about the time her friend threw a tantrum, about her cassette tape, about her friends’ petty rumors. You want to shake her and say Stop talking! None of it matters! But is that true?

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‘the best of philippine speculative fiction (2005-2010)’ to be launched on feb. 28

Source: Dean Alfar

Photo Credit: Dean Alfar

Mark your calendars! The Best of Philippine Speculative Fiction, edited by Dean and Nikki Alfar and published by the University of the Philippines Press, will be launched on the 28th of February! I have a story here!

Here is a message from Dean:

Book launch is on Feb 28, 2013, 5:00PM, at the UP Bahay Kalinaw.

Between these covers are the best short stories of fantasy, horror, science fiction and genres in-between, selected from the first five years of the Philippine Speculative Fiction annuals. Step through the portal and explore worlds old and new and experience the power of the literature of the imagination as crafted by Filipino authors. Featuring stories by:

Rebecca Arcega
FH Batacan
Rica Bolipata-Santos
Jose Elvin Bueno
Ian Rosales Casocot
Paolo Chikiamco
Ronald Cruz
Marguerite Alcazaren de Leon
Timothy James M. Dimacali
Andrew Drilon
Russell Stanley Geronimo
Pocholo Goitia
Carljoe Javier
Angelo R. Lacuesta
Anne Lagamayo
Apol Lejano-Massebieau
Joseph F. Nacino
Alexander Osias
Kate Osias
Vincent Michael Simbulan
Joshua L. Lim So
Charles Tan
Yvette Tan
Mia Tijam
Noel Tio
Eliza Victoria
Isabel Yap
Kenneth Yu

Aside

So how is everyone today? Last week, J found a recipe for Garlic Fried Chicken and White Gravy, so we tried doing that, and it wasn’t very successful. Heh. The gravy was lumpy (we didn’t have a whisk!), and the fried chicken got burnt. It was still a pretty tasty meal though:

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white gravy, brown rice, garlic fried chicken, sauteed spinach

J was apologetic but I was just glad I wasn’t eating something out of a can. (And he was successful in the next attempt! Too bad I wasn’t there to take a photo.)

In quick beauty/kaartehan news, I bought myself my first BB cream. Stick. BB cream stick.

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This is Radiance. If you’re fair-skinned, pick up Fresh. Maybelline’s Clear Smooth BB Stick (PhP 249) blends well and leaves a powder finish, but I’m not sure if this is cruelty-free. What BB cream/stick do you use?

We checked out the book bargain bins, and I got this book for PhP 115.

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And Flipside Publishing editors talk about their picks for 2012. Editor Kristine Reynaldo (with her pretty glasses) picks The Viewless Dark and says it made her cry. Watch the video at the source.

far from the tree

Far From the TreeFar From the Tree by Andrew Solomon

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

 

In Far From The Tree: Parents, Children, and the Search for Identity, Andrew Solomon “tells the stories of parents who not only learn to deal with their exceptional children but also find profound meaning in doing so.” He writes about families “coping with deafness, dwarfism, Down syndrome, autism, schizophrenia, multiple severe disabilities, with children who are prodigies, who are conceived in rape, who become criminals, who are transgender.”

I fell in love with Solomon’s insight right from the first page. He also raises a lot of intriguing questions that I have to admit in my innocence I never asked myself. For example: is being Deaf a disability or an identity? If it were a disability, then that means we believe there is something wrong with a deaf person, that he must hear, and that we must do all we can to give every Deaf child a Cochlear implant and teach him how to speak and live in a world with sound. But if you believe it is not a disability but an identity, then wouldn’t giving a child a Cochlear implant be tantamount to erasing a culture (for example, Deaf Theater) and language (for example, ASL)? Wouldn’t it be, in effect, an act of genocide? The same question is asked about autism and Down syndrome: if each were an identity, then does that mean we should stop looking for a cure and instead focus on celebrating different expressions of personhood? But even stripping them of the disability label has repercussions – they will lose state support and the financial protection given to PWDs.

Identity is complex. We cannot blame or praise just one factor, be it genetics, or environment, or education. How do you raise a child you give birth to but who is different from you? In the book are stories of courageous men and women, but also stories of horror (like that story of a schizophrenic who was driven out of town by his mother and sister, and shot by his sister on the side of the road).

This beautifully written book was an eye-opening read for me.

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gone girl

Gone GirlGone Girl by Gillian Flynn

My rating: 2 of 5 stars

When I started reading Gillian Flynn’s Gone Girl, I thought it would be similar to Tana French’s Broken Harbour – an exploration of a marriage that is starting to buckle under the pressures of the economic recession, followed by tragedy. In Broken Harbour, the tragedy is murder; in Gone Girl, a sudden disappearance, even a possible abduction.

Nick Dunne is a journalist living blissfully in New York with his beautiful wife, Amy. They seem to have it all: a warm place, cozy jobs, love. Then they lose their jobs during the recession, and are forced to move to Nick’s dying hometown in Missouri. Amy is not happy there. One day, a neighbor calls Nick at the bar where he works and says his door is wide open. He goes home and finds signs of struggle inside their home. Amy is gone.

I came into the story thinking it would be a slow, quiet dissection of a failing marriage. Listen to this: I peeked over the side to see if she was in our rowboat, where I had found her one day, tethered to the dock, rocking in the water, her face to the sun, eyes closed, and as I’d peered down into the dazzling reflections of the river, at her beautiful, still face, she’d suddenly opened her blue eyes and said nothing, and I’d said nothing back and gone into the house alone.

But it turned into something sinister – and bizarre. There is the steady accumulation of characters, at times too outlandish to be considered believable: two psychologist parents basing their book series on their only daughter, an uber-rich man who builds a greenhouse filled with nothing but tulips, a woman often described as smelling “vaginal”. Then the twists came, and –

It’s hard to talk about the novel without spoiling the big plot points, but let me just say that Gone Girl could have been great. Could have been. The first half of the book is brilliant. It could have been a commentary on married life, the recession, suburban unhappiness, modern ennui, the danger in the lies we tell each other, but Flynn decided to transport the story into the realm of the truly abnormal and ridiculous. Maybe for the sake of shock value, but it’s not particularly shocking. Once you get over the first big twist, you realize you’ve seen it all before. And it drags on and on, from one over-the-top subplot to another, down to its hateful end, and by then I have stopped caring. It’s not even insightful. I want to know the why, not the how, and the only answer we get to the why is a cop-out.

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cabin in the woods + a bunch of movies

Talk about a film review backlog. (Who caaaaaares?)

Cabin in the Woods

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Here’s what I knew about this film before I saw it: it’s a horror film, Joss Whedon is involved, and Thor is in it. That’s all I knew, and that’s all you need to know so as to maximize your surprise and enjoyment. On the surface, it has a tired, straightforward plot: five teenagers (Thor? Really?) go on vacation in a cabin in the woods, with no electricity, no phones, and no other connection to the outside world. But then, why the hell does the film begin like this?

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Have fun.

ParaNorman -  A stop-motion clay animation film for children that is not afraid to tackle the nature of fear and explore what real-life horrors fear can lead to, like prejudice and exile. The look and the atmosphere reminds me very much of A Nightmare Before Christmas. It’s a great watch. (Casey Affleck also lends his voice to a character, which is a bonus for me.)

Ted - A lonely boy wishes his teddy bear to life. Then the boy grows up to become Mark Wahlberg, and the teddy gets the voice of Peter Griffin. It’s a difficult premise to build on, but Seth MacFarlane delivers. Ted has more heart and laughs than most comedies nowadays.*

The Campaign – *case in point

The Son of No OneA rookie cop, belonging to the most hated precinct in New York post-9/11, is haunted by two murders in 1986. The film stars Ray Liotta and Al Pacino, but doesn’t quite soar to greatness. Still a good, affecting watch, though.

SafeStars Jason Statham. Fast-paced action. I enjoyed watching Catherine Chan more than the guys, though. And my God, Jason’s character’s connection to the kid feels so fake. Take some notes from Jackie Chan, you guys.

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Totally Unrelated Bonus: Here’s a list of my Top 10 books for 2012. What’s yours? :)

prince of thorns

Prince of Thorns (The Broken Empire, #1)Prince of Thorns by Mark Lawrence

My rating: 4 of 5 stars

If you’re a reader who wants to get into fantasy but is allergic to doorstoppers, pick up Mark Lawrence’s Prince of Thorns. It is a quick and engaging read. The narrative is tight and sprints in one direction (with some pause for flashbacks); it doesn’t meander to give long descriptions of landscapes and facial features. The protagonist is vile, and remains vile to the end, picking up some little epiphanies along the way. Lawrence says the book is a fantasy homage to A Clockwork Orange, and it shows.

If you have been reading a lot of fantasy stories, though, the plot is really nothing new: Jorg is nine when the Count Renar kills his mother and only brother. Instead of seeking revenge, Jorg’s father accepts gold and horses in exchange for a truce. Jorg turns 13 and runs away from his father’s castle with a group of bandits. He aims to invade the broken empire and become king by age 15.

However, despite the fantasy trappings, it’s actually far-future sci-fi. Jorg knows Plutarch, and talks about Jesus Christ, but his story happens a thousand years after a massive nuclear war that erases portions of history and access to technology. It’s like Adventure Time! Have fun spotting the WMDs.

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